Emotions...

Oh autumn oh autumn You're all red orange and yellow Nothing bites the eye anymore How do you manage to make it all mellow.. The air is pleasant and the birds sing the sweetest song The leaves gather around and flutter as crickets chirp at night for long.. The greens are few and the greys nowhere to be seen The butterflies are out and about and look how squirrels squeak.. The sun shines its brightest but never warms the sky The rains come in between but your colors never dry.. Oh autumn oh autumn You're so bright and beautiful All your reds and oranges and yellows.. Make life so colorful!

Those droplets ran down on my window pane Some desperate to make their way in While some just brushed aside by the wind The Sun still shone bright in the rain... The petrichor mesmerized me As my furry kid danced in the balcony, She howled with the thunder... As if asking me, “Mamma, why is the shower outside?", I wonder! This heat won’t last long, I sense, Just few more days, when I see such rain again… Thoughts cloud my already clouded mind I ponder on the days spent here in delight... Yes, there is a sense of belonging, if I may But life always has a different plan, they say.. Counting the days starting today, Making memories as the raindrops continue to play... (My windows needed a wash anyway 😛)

The night was dark.. The wind blew cold.. The leaves fluttered and spread themselves.. Across the porch.. Across the porch, she stood still.. Watching the stars as they went gleam Gleam they went From night to night She sang the song That came to her mind.. It came to her mind From her heart.. The tune was new The words were smart.. The words were smart Nobody taught her to rhyme She did this since she was 2 Little did she know, it was a crime.. Yes, it was a crime The civilization did not know the art They just knew how to play the dart Play the dart Is all they did… They claimed art A sinful deed Mom said, “oh my child, I warn you of hell.. Coming soon to take away your smile.. “Take away your smile And never let you be.. What you want, my dear Is not in this world for thee…” “Its not for you To sing and dance They will never bear the happiness And enjoy your trance..” “You sing my dear...

A thundering sound passed by.. The loud firing jolted me back As the speed added a zest to my fly.. I am pulled in the momentary series of images, emotions, and a thought.. An experience of a visionary creation of my imagination.. Oh again in that usual daydream, I am happily caught.. It starts with a dense cloud of dust on my face As I rub my eyes to see through the haze Oh my god, a Desert Storm  in front of my eyes!!! My heart sets itself on an undefined pace.. The evening's red light fills the sky I approach the beast.. And wish to fly.. The sun sets in the background As I see the evening approach.. I decide to settle in the astound.. Its then, I see the moon rise in the night's blue.. The road's all empty.. I park my S torm  under a street light, a little mist around... A dog crosses, looks at me with a refrain.. A dry leaf flies with the breeze.. Settles itself aside in disdain.. I prepare, and wear my gear.. As I assure my St...

"Life is a river they say. No matter what, a river always turns, goes through ups and downs and never stops to move on!” ‘Life cycles’, a documentary on cycling, is something that moved me a lot! This apparently was shared with me by my elder brother, an avid cyclist himself. Cycling didn’t happen to me just like that. I was always skeptical at the beginning; thought cycling was to be done only during school days. I’m grown up now, cycling would be just stupid! But no, it turned out to be more fun than earlier! Trust me when I say that, the moment you know your effort is making you go faster, become a kid again, cut through traffic and sweat all the anger out: All of that just makes you want to cycle more! The wind on your face feels much much better than that while riding an Activa! I was inspired by my brother’s stint and that’s how one fine day I got the bike out of the rubble, dusted off some cobwebs, oiled the chains, fixed the gears, bloated the tyres and made my m...

Isn’t it nice to love and be loved back? One feeling to another as if jumping a track…   One door opens avenues of wonder The other simply allows me to maunder…   Remnants of past I dust away As beautiful flowers come my way…   Happiness whispers its giggles to me Overjoyed, I shake a leg, my mind free…   Refusing to turn around, I walk this new boulevard With a lot in mind, I plant new seeds in our secret yard… :)

Somewhere lost in the sea of silence, I try to find the solace in you, I try to live the truth, and there I find me in you... I know I build the restlessness around us for some time... But your talk seizes the pressure every time… The wind goes still for a while… Oh that wouldn’t deter me to carry on for miles… But you know the fact.. I cannot go on for long with the same smile… I feel I’m rowing this boat a little too hard… But I'm probably thinking of too far! I’m sure the waves would lead us to the shore But me being me, I would still row… I know trivialities happen for a reason… But you know, with time, changes the season… Yes times do change, and so do thoughts, they say... A tiny ray of hope would still help me play… Along the crevices I will still follow your way, To help you think, if you may...

Oh finally it has come to me.. To write and plea.. To the lord almighty.. - "Help, coz I need some things for free..!" Wait, no longer I can.. Coz enough I have ran.. Behind unrealistic faces.. Now I wish to get rid of some traces.. Plans now are a little more tangible.. Some instinctively manageable... Priorities, I know are some unset.. Few new are now on the crest... Set for some new locations.. unknown expressions.. trying to get rid of some clumsiness and foolish infatuations now is the need to get in a different set of relations... Love, I know will happen to me.. As time will flee.. With little nervousness and curiosity.. I take my steps to set myself free...!

Cool wind on my face Reminds me I’m stuck in a maze A dusky haze I fail to wipe off… Moments pass by A smile with a wry No tears to cry I fail to write me off… Off they go With a smirk in their eyes Off they go With ignorance on their minds Off they go.. my feelings.. Oh! off they go from all the sides Looking out with an array of bewildered emotions I’m letting myself be taken away in this wind’s direction Without your sanction Oh lord! how do I put my past off… Standing on the edge of this cliff I wonder if I at all miff Oh please don’t play the riff In the times so stiff When I fail to look out for a partner to just laugh it all off….

Awakening with a shudder I respond to my own imbalance Pervert thoughts mutter Loveless feeling.. cropping up again… These hormones reacting weirdly I look at everything for prey To gut out all I have… is what is left for the day… Hell that touch is so tantalizing   A hug so mesmerizing A notion so abusing Now awareness no more so amusing Seductive thoughts linger all over I wish to pounce on everything under cover Hell I don’t need a lover Bring me an animal that I would devour… Just when I’m coming to senses I see myself in menses Reduced to such a horrible state I hover over opportunities But don’t instigate… Give me a fruit Give me a flower Give me some essence Give me a shower… Clean me off the stains Take me in the rains Make me dine Pour on me some wine Taste me till I sour Dear lets jus be ourselves for this hour… Rinse me off your sweat Nothing equal to this I have still met Lead me to ruins Get down to my knees… I’m sure you would do what I please… Read my eyes D...

Regardless I was sitting under the moon The night shone so bright A tune ringing in my head A long lost dream in sight… I stared in wilderness As the night would fade… Would have loved for the ignorance and helplessness to stay.. But the bouts of thoughts did invade.. Thoughts came and went… Time knocked several times Could not by anyways this situation evade I just cared less than a dime.. Satire aint working Sarcasm too much Exaggeration to hell My friend, it simple... I suffer from pain in my bowel Caffeine hitting harder than alcohol Spirits going to hell Heavens rise too high I am addicted to myself The priest did try to awaken my soul In apathy I erode Serene tasks Mundane routine.. yeah that has become me… I love myself But... tough to be gloried!!! No there aint no white flag at my door I won’t throw the towels in my life’s ring What is this.. I fail to figure out I just whistle and sing… An apple left to decay Or a bread left to stale Running away from people I find m...

Clueless as to where m heading... Needless to say.. getting stagnant day by day Worthless for what m working... Helpless when it comes to pray... Not sure if m reaching heights Losing faith in sights Extravagant opportunes Morbid attitude I forget to fight Sanctity lost Yet love no more is subjective Monopoly is ruling The politics objective... Here's an antagonist, now in schooling!

Finding ME in me: ह्याचाशी माझे नाते आहे… : "(माझ्या मैत्रिणी (दिव्या) साठी काही ओळी) - visit divyaranadive.blogspot.com हवा हवा सा वाटणारा जिव्हाळा,तो पहिला मादक स्पर्शाचा निवारा..."

A long lost childhood friend... (24th May 1983 to 7th March 2011) The music was playing But couldnt listen to it The food was on the platter But couldnt eat it The news had come But still cant take it.. Time had arrived But took away the wrong one In silence and tranquil Now lies your gun That brain closed the doors To the world unknown That heart went numb To the pain and succumbed Still unable to take the news You didnt leave us any clues Rest in peace my dear friend M sure ur safe up there Till time unknown when we see you again We'll stare the sky to point a STAR that you wud represent.. R.I.P. chhotu!!!

Help yourself My friend, help yourself… It’s a wonderful world But you gotta help yourself A rollercoaster ride… this life My friend, a rollercoaster ride Hold on to yourself These rides go high n low Crazy sights on the way You might lose the flow… Just be yourself My friend, just be yourself Don’t lose out on the opportunities They don't come easy you see You gotta buy your every moment here Everything’s a deal, nothing's for free… Move on from this junction My friend, just move away from the old function… Friends, jobs, relatives, marriages don’t happen here on their own The water has always somewhere, flown The sun shines here daily So you see, you gotta face the world gaily… Pick up your luggage Walk your way, Help yourself My friend, you gotta move on everyday…

His breath blew away the hair on my face, I stared in surprise, scared, calm....but felt my heart race... My hand in air.... confused… as I didn’t want to hold him, He came even more close to kiss…A sin! My eyes closed…scared and bewildered, But he very well monitored… A tear rolled down my cheek, I couldn’t.... But my eyes did speak.... Felt the breeze on my face, As also his hand went through my shirt in slow pace.... I shivered, but wasn’t cold, His hunger grew, for me to hold… My stomach twitched, As his hand lingered.... The shiver grew, As I gave up and surrendered.... The shirts came apart, as he threw them over the sack, He struggled further on my back... The restless hand unhooked the last piece As he picked me up to take me under the sheets... That tongue licked everywhere, Tasting my every drop of sweat... I gazed in pain and despair, As his throne moved inside, defining a ruthless death... With time I saw the feelings end, The touch tearing me apart, I hate his scent...

Yeah I’m gripped by pain no pill no grain my head spins my vision fades my mouth dries i feel my heart race my feet tremble my hands stumble i lose breath my words fumble the momentary lapse the zonked out farce i phase out but the thirst grows in the sparse... Yeah i need to be drugged a little intoxicated i need to be sloshed and a bit stimulated i need to be smothered ahh for a while.. quench my thirst with the ardent spirit I just cannot go on with a fake smile… The hunger's growing for brains to go numb in the high spirits i may succumb With every glass filled to its brim i prowl over each with a grin… A drop of Vodka so excruciating a little Gin and some Tequila ahh sequined... Rum to soothe Scotch so smooth Wine, yeah refreshing.. Well Cognac's for the rich And Champagne too exquisite für mich... Aye boy, let’s not go that far Oh forget the classics Man just take me to a bar.......