Emotions...

Clueless as to where m heading... Needless to say.. getting stagnant day by day Worthless for what m working... Helpless when it comes to pray... Not sure if m reaching heights Losing faith in sights Extravagant opportunes Morbid attitude I forget to fight Sanctity lost Yet love no more is subjective Monopoly is ruling The politics objective... Here's an antagonist, now in schooling!

Finding ME in me: ह्याचाशी माझे नाते आहे… : "(माझ्या मैत्रिणी (दिव्या) साठी काही ओळी) - visit divyaranadive.blogspot.com हवा हवा सा वाटणारा जिव्हाळा,तो पहिला मादक स्पर्शाचा निवारा..."

A long lost childhood friend... (24th May 1983 to 7th March 2011) The music was playing But couldnt listen to it The food was on the platter But couldnt eat it The news had come But still cant take it.. Time had arrived But took away the wrong one In silence and tranquil Now lies your gun That brain closed the doors To the world unknown That heart went numb To the pain and succumbed Still unable to take the news You didnt leave us any clues Rest in peace my dear friend M sure ur safe up there Till time unknown when we see you again We'll stare the sky to point a STAR that you wud represent.. R.I.P. chhotu!!!

Help yourself My friend, help yourself… It’s a wonderful world But you gotta help yourself A rollercoaster ride… this life My friend, a rollercoaster ride Hold on to yourself These rides go high n low Crazy sights on the way You might lose the flow… Just be yourself My friend, just be yourself Don’t lose out on the opportunities They don't come easy you see You gotta buy your every moment here Everything’s a deal, nothing's for free… Move on from this junction My friend, just move away from the old function… Friends, jobs, relatives, marriages don’t happen here on their own The water has always somewhere, flown The sun shines here daily So you see, you gotta face the world gaily… Pick up your luggage Walk your way, Help yourself My friend, you gotta move on everyday…

His breath blew away the hair on my face, I stared in surprise, scared, calm....but felt my heart race... My hand in air.... confused… as I didn’t want to hold him, He came even more close to kiss…A sin! My eyes closed…scared and bewildered, But he very well monitored… A tear rolled down my cheek, I couldn’t.... But my eyes did speak.... Felt the breeze on my face, As also his hand went through my shirt in slow pace.... I shivered, but wasn’t cold, His hunger grew, for me to hold… My stomach twitched, As his hand lingered.... The shiver grew, As I gave up and surrendered.... The shirts came apart, as he threw them over the sack, He struggled further on my back... The restless hand unhooked the last piece As he picked me up to take me under the sheets... That tongue licked everywhere, Tasting my every drop of sweat... I gazed in pain and despair, As his throne moved inside, defining a ruthless death... With time I saw the feelings end, The touch tearing me apart, I hate his scent...

Yeah I’m gripped by pain no pill no grain my head spins my vision fades my mouth dries i feel my heart race my feet tremble my hands stumble i lose breath my words fumble the momentary lapse the zonked out farce i phase out but the thirst grows in the sparse... Yeah i need to be drugged a little intoxicated i need to be sloshed and a bit stimulated i need to be smothered ahh for a while.. quench my thirst with the ardent spirit I just cannot go on with a fake smile… The hunger's growing for brains to go numb in the high spirits i may succumb With every glass filled to its brim i prowl over each with a grin… A drop of Vodka so excruciating a little Gin and some Tequila ahh sequined... Rum to soothe Scotch so smooth Wine, yeah refreshing.. Well Cognac's for the rich And Champagne too exquisite für mich... Aye boy, let’s not go that far Oh forget the classics Man just take me to a bar.......

And so i sit here make up my mind try to put down some thoughts to make a rhyme But i wonder... All's blacked out and my mind wanders through the emptiness to find some words of sinful disgrace random thoughts come and go but my mind fails to go with the flow the mysticism grows nothing reveals the fate my brain devours on thoughts in debate i think of frictions i think of relations but i fail to think of concerns… Oh Lord! show me a direction... As i wander.... The uneasiness in the daedal the blissful words so cynical The world around so methodical n i wander in the madness... remnants of past disdains of present misleading future living in the aviary, since quite recent borrowed possessions fear of confessions confused emotions amused by egoism wandering with a light heartedness... an anthem forgotten a principle long lost an aim reversed m in top gear, yet broken in thought... loosened ends empty pages colorless crayons to whiten the stains.. of a wanderers ailment… ...