Emotions...

His breath blew away the hair on my face, I stared in surprise, scared, calm....but felt my heart race... My hand in air.... confused… as I didn’t want to hold him, He came even more close to kiss…A sin! My eyes closed…scared and bewildered, But he very well monitored… A tear rolled down my cheek, I couldn’t.... But my eyes did speak.... Felt the breeze on my face, As also his hand went through my shirt in slow pace.... I shivered, but wasn’t cold, His hunger grew, for me to hold… My stomach twitched, As his hand lingered.... The shiver grew, As I gave up and surrendered.... The shirts came apart, as he threw them over the sack, He struggled further on my back... The restless hand unhooked the last piece As he picked me up to take me under the sheets... That tongue licked everywhere, Tasting my every drop of sweat... I gazed in pain and despair, As his throne moved inside, defining a ruthless death... With time I saw the feelings end, The touch tearing me apart, I hate his scent

Yeah I’m gripped by pain no pill no grain my head spins my vision fades my mouth dries i feel my heart race my feet tremble my hands stumble i lose breath my words fumble the momentary lapse the zonked out farce i phase out but the thirst grows in the sparse... Yeah i need to be drugged a little intoxicated i need to be sloshed and a bit stimulated i need to be smothered ahh for a while.. quench my thirst with the ardent spirit I just cannot go on with a fake smile… The hunger's growing for brains to go numb in the high spirits i may succumb With every glass filled to its brim i prowl over each with a grin… A drop of Vodka so excruciating a little Gin and some Tequila ahh sequined... Rum to soothe Scotch so smooth Wine, yeah refreshing.. Well Cognac's for the rich And Champagne too exquisite für mich... Aye boy, let’s not go that far Oh forget the classics Man just take me to a bar.......

And so i sit here make up my mind try to put down some thoughts to make a rhyme But i wonder... All's blacked out and my mind wanders through the emptiness to find some words of sinful disgrace random thoughts come and go but my mind fails to go with the flow the mysticism grows nothing reveals the fate my brain devours on thoughts in debate i think of frictions i think of relations but i fail to think of concerns… Oh Lord! show me a direction... As i wander.... The uneasiness in the daedal the blissful words so cynical The world around so methodical n i wander in the madness... remnants of past disdains of present misleading future living in the aviary, since quite recent borrowed possessions fear of confessions confused emotions amused by egoism wandering with a light heartedness... an anthem forgotten a principle long lost an aim reversed m in top gear, yet broken in thought... loosened ends empty pages colorless crayons to whiten the stains.. of a wanderers ailment…

eka shwasacha antar pan te hi adhantar nhavte naate shabda hi nhavte vaatle julale maan kaayamche... nirantar... Avghadlya veli komejli ga kali mavalla diwas ahe ratra amavas eka sparshacha adhar aaj manavar tyachach bhar vaatle julali taar pan nirakaar... gele ga vaahuni mi phoolarani mi ga vedi tyachyat mavalli arey hey maan veda evdhya mothya shaharaat shodhta ek kheda distach raan mokla pisaatla... detach karangli dharla ga kambreshi pan andhaarat modli me ek mithi tyachashi....

Julwun ghetle kaviteshi naate Ayushyawar hasne aata poore zaale Nishkal swapnanchya garaaryatun baher padun garudasarkhi jhep ghyaychi hoti Vasundharela aabhalashi honarya meelanacha avishkar darshavitana kavitechi jod ghyaychi hoti Mazya pratyek krutitun mazya pratibimbalahi sphoorti milat hoti Mala swatahla samadhaan hoat hoate, kavitechi saath milat hoti Buddhi aatmyachi mahati sangtana anubhavachi dnyanganga duthdi bharun vaahat hoti Bolayla chaalayla vaagayla ekach marga hota, mala chakka kavita suchat hoti... (an inspiration...)

Aj waara nustach wahla Osaad walwantat dhul udwun gela... Aj odhni nustich udat rahili Olya dolyat tine phakta dulach bharli... Aj surya nustach ugawla Jata jata matra kali ratra sodun gela... oon thandi, oon garthyat maza maan bhegalla Tya bhegana buzwayla mala ashrucha ekach themb sapadla!!!!

May he rest in peace!!!! Wrote this for his 91st b'day!!! (July 2004) All i wish is to have those days back!!! :) You've crossed 80's long back Now its the turn of 90's Sure you've grown old But still young at heart As today's world... Still remember you getting me those drawing books and pencils For me to draw and show my stupid skills Still cant forget you getting me those Monaco biscuits To dip them in a cup of tea and enjoy their crisps... You've walked all the thorned and narrow ways Never thought ill of anyone in anyways Never seen a man with such perfection To be like you, one would need a strong perception... Its your day today And live it to its fullest I'll pray to God for you To live a life in a way of its best Forget the world and think of the next Dont forget to take your pills and have a nice rest Dream of coming 90's and celebrate it the best :)) Love ya... miss ya :)

(Inspired from a song...) Dhunda hote shabda saare Dhunda hotya bhavna Vaarya sange vahtana Tya fula pashi thamb na... Kar mokle maan tuze Saye... tu mazya sange bol na.. Vaarya sange vahtana Ya fula pashi thamb na... Khup kahi dadlay ya andharaat.. Tu umed navi jaag na.. Vaarya sange vahtana Ya fula pashi thamb na... Maani swapna lapleli Tyanna dheer nava tu bandh na.. Varya sange vahtana Ya fula pashi thamb na... Sparsha maj karuni Tu gandha maza sang na... Varya sange vahtana Tu 'mazya' pashi thamb na........!!!